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Oh wow! I wanted to write something about Christmas but it’s been New Year already! — wait, it’s like de ja vu…. or it is me copy-pasting the post from one year later. It’s been a long time since I updated my last post here, I wonder where I was… Truth is, I have some photographs to be shared (including Christmas, flowers and some cute kittens update) but I don’t know what to write. Perhaps scrolling down tumblr and lurking around twitter’s timeline ate half of my brain -ha!

First of all, to all dear readers, happy new year 2014! I know it’s not too late – at least, it’s still 8PM in Indonesia right now! Yay and be merry~ ヾ(*´∇`)ノ  Let this year be awesome, full of blessings, and good fortunes!

Okay, second of all, let me get you a quick review about last days of 2013 – as usual, bad news happen. I don’t want to tell whole story without adding some rage on it, since if someone happened to google that “keyword”, my reputation will be like rolling down the hill and heated arguments will be all over my dash. It’s related to my current situation, scholarship wise, and when I am reminded of that, I just want to sing “Let it Go : honest version” by Elsa the Snow Queen. The morale of the story is…

“Trust God because He is Omnipotent. Humans can’t be counted upon.”

I have trouble dealing with earthlings even AT 1.1.2014, because the event severely affects my whole (life) study and I will just go…. “oh fuck!” without any censorship. This is 1.1 to start brand new resolutions and thought, a day where all people in the world tried to look back to the past and see what they had done. Even it is not 1.1, nothing is ever too late if you realize it sooner – don’t wait until 1.1 or next month or next semester – do it now. That’s what I always think. But for these kind of nasty possibility that is out of our reach and we don’t have power to change or even argue, shrug it off. They are earthlings, which means, you cannot be naive enough to trust them fully. In other uncensored words of advice, “dance on their palms and be a good girl they want you to be” to get what you want, or else it will fly away from you. I’m talking about scholarship. Oh wait, do I develop sarcasm?

Alright, leave that topic alone, now it’s time for New Year celebration! As usual, let’s go back one year later and see what I have written there…..

  1. I want to start researching again after PLN gives us normal supply of electricity. Please, please, please, please….
  2. I want to master efficient gambling method before February. I want to gamble in Monte Carlo’s CASINO, since I’ll go to JAIST for WinterSchool Quantum Monte Carlo workshop with CASINO, and I should learn about it first beforehand so I’ll not look like an idiot there.
  3. I want to evolve into Kyuubei. I’ll be 23 this year and I should stop messing around like a penguin or amoeba.
  4. I want to continue my study as a physicist, anywhere with scholarship. HA! I’ll let God lead my way, because I know He holds my fate. If I ended up in the forest of CMD again, I’ll certainly do it wholeheartedly. If to Japan, God blesses me. If not, I can follow my friend’s path in Tanggerang, but let it be the last decision I’ll make. One thing regarding this resolution is I don’t want to burden my parents anymore, so I’ll either work or study this year. Oh yeah, I’m still working as Tinker’s illustrator, but I guess I’m not that suitable hahaa…
  5. The last, as my oath to myself since 3rd grade Junior High, I want to make a complete artwork. So far, I’ve always made one although I couldn’t say they were successful. For three years I’ve done for RP groups (doujin and manga). Who knows what will I make for this year.

Yup, yup! It’s been quite long for a rant already, read more under the cut…. but before that

HAHHAHAA- DID I MENTION HOW I WANT TO MASTER QMC BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO LOOK LIKE AN IDIOT THERE-! *insert an odd laugh here* Of course, before I come to second resolution review, I have to consider the first. First of all, the PLN doesn’t dancing like it was teenager girl in HardRock Cafe this year – and we got four high-specs computers from Supermicro. I didn’t manage to do much about it but my research topic was continued by my fellow labmates. And the second…. let me laugh at it again. Yes, I meet amazing friends and until now I still remember our moments together and their faces. They are awesome – you heard me. It was my first time going abroad alone and do everything alone in someone’s country in which they didn’t speak English. I have made friends and beautiful experience. And eh- about QMC… let me laugh at it again, this time in tears and mixed in some weeps. You know the rest.  I DO look like an idiot there fyi.

Congratulations for me, I have evolved into Kyuubei and now I changed some of my avatars to that creature with “contract?” dialogue stamped on its forehead. Going back to last year, I have developed some nasty attitude and didn’t even bother to censor my swearing words or my anger. I followed politics and social-media commentaries about culture and such, which I regretted myself by doing so, because all of them were giving me hard times. Some of them are so illogical that I have a desire to smack the capslock button so hard and type something as counter-arguments. Then, after reviewing my “clumsy and reckless” behavior, I realized that this is internet. Internet’s first rule is “one’s words can be turned against you; no exception“. That’s true – WHICH means when you disagree, you have proven this sentence yourself. True or false is no longer absolute, everyone has their own opinion – logical or not. Oh, the heck about “freedom of speech”. NSA and spying happen last year, and no shock to it. To control your people, you have to understand and to monitor them and rob them their “said-freedom”. That’s how society works. Don’t be fooled, don’t be so naive, I grew last year around these kind of topic that made me quite… a devil myself.

Then, let’s continue the review. I left Tinker, you had known why, and I entered CMD-QE in ITB again because I didn’t even manage to pass the administrative qualification for whatever reason – which in fact I found a doubt after reading who got the scholarships and who was not. I haven’t stressed it’s all politics enough. I paid my tuition fee by the help of my parents, but striving to get scholarship and working as illustration freelancer in deviantArt by opening paypal commissions. I nearly get it. Nearly. Yes. Close enough but haven’t because some reasons unspeakable that brought me in raging state. “The rest, is up to God”.

The last of the review is… I’ve done it 🙂 It was about roleplay group again, a mini 10+ pages comic about my original characters and was sold (twice, different ‘circle’ and different ‘story’ but the drawings are by me — I mean, half of it — at least I got the credit; it was so complicated) in local Comic Market. It was finished already and my proudest opinion so far is……!

I don’t want to see it anymore.

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Oh wow! I wanted to write something about Christmas but it’s been New Year already! It’s really been a year! Let’s do some copy-pasting:

To all readers, happy new year 2012! ヾ(*´∇`)ノ  Let this year be awesome, full of blessings, and good fortunes!

I’ve heard about some bad news these first days of 2013, starting of Citizen should bow to the neighbor club, unfortunatelly no 6-1 this year huh… *disappointed* ( ・_・)ノ… murder case in my hometown – oh wait – it’s been around since forever and the good news are I heard police has captured most of motorcycle thieves and murderers… Although there are some bad news around you, don’t let them reduce your spirit to do good works. Will always be  there, keep good spirit and hop hop hop! Like I tweeted, 1.1 is an easy-to-remember date each year to start over all things new, like Billy Graham said: “Clean the Blackboard and Start Anew”, why not another date because nothing is already too late to start anew? Because we tend to forget, to move on from date to date without realizing that very date – even our birthday passes like nothing special going, and we only concern about present; not future, not the past. But on New Year, 1.1, whether the first “1” is month or date, we start the day with fireworks. Like they are brightly say to each of us:

“Hey, pal! It’s New Year! It’s Earth’s Birthday! Let’s start this year new, and let the blessing comes upon us! What’s your vision for future this year, matey? Oh, what have you done last year? Terrible, terrible! You can’t do anything about the past, but you can learn from them. Clean the blackboard and start a new life in this new year!”

Alright! Now time to look back to the past a bit before move on to see the future. What did I write back then last year…..

I’ll share what to post here until July (my aimed graduation)!
HERE UNTIL JULY (MY AIMED GRADUATION)!
JULY (MY AIMED GRADUATION)!
(AIMED GRADUATION!)
(GRADUATION)! /dies suffocated/

  1. Things about my undergraduate thesis! I haven’t touched them even though I’ve written the abstract for QED-C’s admission oTL;; I should graduate in July since it’s part of my vow for Osaka Univ, if I am to be accepted to study there for master and doctoral program. That means also an extremely hard works! I’ll be using DL_POLY for Molecular Dynamics Modeling,  which I haven’t tried since I have to do it, perhaps, with my campus’ cluster and palodozen. [ AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA /dies laughing ] Did I really write this kind of thing? Ah… ehm, well….. you see. I gave up July Graduation and graduated on October. But it wasn’t even my full-research topic, I just did the equilibration which was the 1/32 part of all research on Molecular Dynamics. I did use palodozen though. It’s my responsibility now to pass my knowledge to juniors 🙂 ]
  2. QUE 4koma Project will be updated every day or every week, because may be I don’t have enough time for drawing properly until July :,D [ AHAHAHAHAA /dies crying/ Did I really write this kind of thing? I do really wish I could, but I fail me. ]
  3. Something about soundscape (my friend’s thesis). It’s a very interesting topic! I’ll give some of examples but don’t expect me to give it in lossless format XD since I’ll only record voices with my cellphone recorder. [ ….I didn’t even have opportunity to leave my freezing laboratory this year ]

Research said (I read without seeing the source, but well it’s logical) making new year resolution gives off depression. Everyone tends to fail their expectation since – nah – we have such a very high spirit in the new day of the year. But I think that’s OK. If we are already depressed in the first day, how about the latter days? Just dream. Is it impossible? Whatever. Do have a dream, and from a dream, grab that impossibility. My first resolution in 2012 was to graduate in July, and until March I still aimed that. But then I gave up. But I knew, I dreamt of having graduated in that 2012! So, I pursued October, and I did it. International presentation as bonus. I didn’t fulfil my promise to Handaigaku, but I thought that was better.

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I thought I would be free this supposed-to-be-semester’s-holiday but unfortunately I have been dreaming too much for it to happen :(. I’ll be spending these 6 months continuing my research on MD simulation as well as part time job (which wage will be spent later for my future study), I imagine I’ll be extremely exhausted, not to mention I’m writing papers for next conferences. My thesis is not going well, but, nah – that is what a research means.

Firstly I would like to apologize because last time I updated, I wrote that I want to share my thesis and the molecular dynamics method and the software, dl_poly. I now realize that sharing my thesis in my public blog is not allowed. I don’t have right to publish the outcome elsewhere but official journals (if it happens to be published: that’s really a miracle) or my campus’s database. As molecular dynamics and dl_poly, they have been covered very well in other sites, such as Swiss Institute of Bioinformatics and DL_POLY website.

As this blog’s name, this is a junkyard. I post what I want to share for you to read and comment, so perhaps you’ll see either my science mumblings, drawings, my thoughts on politics and stuffs, my experience with fabulous friends or private moment with God, or photography. Thank you and good day! 😉

To all readers, happy new year 2012! ヾ(*´∇`)ノ  Let this year be awesome, full of blessings, and good fortunes!

I’ve heard about some bad news these first days of 2012, starting from the lost of two Mancheste–wait… okay, I’m The Citizen’s fan ( ・_・)ノ… murder case in my hometown, crisis in politics and economics… Although there are some bad news around you, don’t let them reduce your spirit to do good works. One of my friend tweeted, “why (people usually set good resolution and wait for next year to do another resolution) always in new year, why not new day, new minute, new second…”. And I received an answer from my prof in etiquette course that these days (my nation) people are sick and we need to brace ourselves, strengthen our belief and faith to counter the tides. It’s a very good advice, never cease to do good works, don’t let critiques and bad issues affect what you’ve believed, and – the most important thing – let God leads you according to His plan.

Alright! Now time to share what to post here until July (my aimed graduation)!

  1. Things about my undergraduate thesis! I haven’t touched them even though I’ve written the abstract for QED-C’s admission oTL;; I should graduate in July since it’s part of my vow for Osaka Univ, if I am to be accepted to study there for master and doctoral program. That means also an extremely hard works! I’ll be using DL_POLY for Molecular Dynamics Modeling,  which I haven’t tried since I have to do it, perhaps, with my campus’ cluster and palodozen.
  2. QUE 4koma Project will be updated every day or every week, because may be I don’t have enough time for drawing properly until July :,D
  3. Something about soundscape (my friend’s thesis). It’s a very interesting topic! I’ll give some of examples but don’t expect me to give it in lossless format XD since I’ll only record voices with my cellphone recorder.

Since the layout and the contents are ready, I hereby declare that this blog is ready to be used (self-standing ovation). I’ll post here what I working on, especially about things related to science and technology this semester.

  1. Seminary Resume
  2. Something about my Final Project (Lithium-Ion Battery)
  3. 4koma manga “QUE” related to science-gag

And for the artwork, I’ll submit the finished projects that have submitted before in my dA.

  1. Gate to Ragnarok: Death Corps (doujinshi)
  2. Frozen Memories: Tribute, a literature project when I was high-school

Hello there, everyone! Welcome to my blog 😀 It’s been 4 years I haven’t updated anything (and I forgot that I have this account) so I have to demolish all the contents and -apparently trying to- reorganizing things. This blog will focus on Science, Technology, and Art… you won’t see my rants here, don’t worry. I will post some of my works and passion here, so I beg for your patience.

Regards,

The lost-and-now-is found-author